Friday, April 27, 2007
life's been bored and there's almost nothing much happening to me... its just lifeless days working hanging out and slacking... then after i quited, well ya felt kinda moody about friends and family...just felt that i wasnt as sociable as i thought i was... when you settle down and you suddenly realised that the closest friends that you have arent alot... you begin to feel that are you the one to be at fault... maybe i am... but i really dont know why.... just felty this way...
mm changed my blog skin... haha just something plain and melancholic and the music was very serene... haha got the music from -day after tomorrow- it just gives you the feeling of peace beacuse there's nobody around... haha nice music to listen to in the rain...
yes the day after tomorrow i'll be botak and ding morning pt... haha bye peeps
-rain keeps poring-
10:44 am
Sunday, January 28, 2007
was trying to blog for these few days after i quitted but it seems that my blog's down for some god knows what reasons... but yupz finally can blog...
16th feb - tues
well 1st day of my jobless days... haha woke up in the morning and went down dhoby ghout 1st... went ps creative to find ot the aurvana headphones cost how much... it was 169 there so since the guy at funan offered me 140 so decided not to buy there and went down to sunshine plaza before goin down funan... bought myself a gundam... haha not very ex one but pretty cool... mm wet funan and got myself that headphone... haha worth the hard work la the headphone was great... not the best but i couldnt ask for anything better... enjoy ar!!
wed
went with cnnie go vivo find justin to check out the imac and search for jobs... mm fruitless day some more i damn blur blur that day...
thurs
morning called levi's anne and scheduled an interview on fri...mm then meet bei to buy her stuff for sth den some more since justin need to pay mr tong stuff so the 3 of us meet up chatted and went around shoping... went to this shop besides bugis domanchi... saw 2 shirts i really liked, a black and a white, both long sleeves... but total around a hundred... not really worth the money now... haha see if i can find something similiar and cheaper... walked around then after that bei left for tuition then me and justin went sommerset to find peifen... mm ate then the two of us went heeren... managed to get an interview for a shop called C.A.P... nice jeans and shirts...
fri
went to levi's there interview... super short interview... really nothing much...
sat
forgotten le... should be nothing much ba...
sun
got my imac... haha dad decide to get one ourself... then rush down back to j8 to watch death note 2 with xin yu... hey finally the girl is free... haha not really good movie but haha fun seeing xin yu's reactions... damn funny la, the way she covered her mouth on every twists kick the chairs and tying to tear off my sleeves as though she's watching a horror movie... wahaha
mon
was trying to solve some problems on my com in the morning then in the afternoon bei came to my house to study maths... figured out that i've really really rusted after so long not touching maths... haha... then anne called and ask me to go down bugis seiyu and start work there on fri...
tues
asked justin to come over my house to tie up the loose ends on y com... mm then around evening went over to bugis to find connie tian and bei... cam over to my house and had a short mahjong session... haha...
wed
went out with diane and karen for a short shopping trip before goin hom pretty early with mayday's latest album... love the song tian shi... haha its me... anything angels and devils i'll like and some more the song is really good... finally found my tian shi...
thurs
haha bei's b'dae... haha i was the 1st to sing her b'dae song... some more live through the webcam... wahaha... mm started the day goin down to city hall to get her miss sixty perfume... then meet justin and tian to find bei her speaker... mm ate kfc for lunch... then went to this boardgame cafe where we saw this waitress that looks like xiying... she's very very pretty... some more looks demure looks only la... then some more without makeup but really very sweet and so omg that i dont even dare to look at her, afraid that i might blush.... haha.. had fun playing games and went down bei's house play mahjong chit chat sing song eat cake... haha at the end of the day i'm ust glad that bei's happy as i've told her that she will even though she has doubts about it at the start...
fri
1st day of levi's work... omg no staff price!!! that means i need to go buy jeans asap... haha nice crew and i learnt alot about jeans... maybe not alot more than the general public but at least i've gain alot of knowledge than i am before... haha share with u guys next time...
sat
today... nth much just that i managed to hav decent sales and got used to the guy's section... but the ladies' side i'll need some more time...meet the rest of the staff.. really fun crew to work with but too bad today i get t know that i'm only at seiyu bugis for training... then most prob i'll be transferred somewhere else...
to be continued...
-rain keeps poring-
12:37 am
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
forgot to add in my last post that i'm working with this company that sells fitness consoles and their games... mm tiring... especially i have to shout run jump hop dance box squat and promote my stuff all at the same time... here are my activities...
fri 5th jan-
started our work at toa payoh with justin... not much customers and most of the time i'm trying to get used to the products and games cos next day i had to be alone at harbourfront big megastore and some more boss say treat me if i sell one... mm had some good chat with justin...
sat -
was late to meet justin and peifen... stepped on dog poo that day... argh... smelly... but haha like they always says it brings good luck to step on dog poo, sold 2 aerostep set that day... haha broke record la... cos boss say there 6weeks sold 5sets... haha...
sun -
boring day at parkway parade... bad position and some more really bad service staff... so what if u have more experience in the service line, i guess my service attitude is much better than u are and dont u criticise me on how i do my sales when u're not even the one who hires me... man wonder how did he manage to get into that position... service comes from the heart and i think all his service attitude comes only for the sake of getting more sales... no sets that day...
mon -
well 1st day at century square... not bad staff pretty fun to work with...haha the osim guy the cannon boy and the QB aunties... sold 1 full set to a dad/husband and wife/daughter... well i really dunno... the lady looks too young to be his wife and too old to be his daughter... anyway not bad for a weekday
tues -
nth much happens, but beginning to see the trend of customers comin... customers who buy doesnt come in a crowd while in a crowwd u can hardly find any real buying customers... and alot of skilled couples... haha justin would know this... last min 7.20 just 40mins away from knocking off a married couple gets a full set... 1set again...
wed -
day started out with a malay guy bringing his mom to shop... then he told me he was 30 but his action and the way he persuaded his mom to buy the set was like a child... haha... anyway thought that i'd be able to sell more but yupz 1full set for the day again...
thurs -
off day... went to meet connie, bei en justin and peifen at compass point to have our lunch... after that me and bei went shopping for stationaries and the rest went with connie for her 'interview' after that all meet up at my house play mahjong and had a good dinner...
fri -
nothing much, boss treat lunch... tried very hard but only a aerostep set sales... not really good...
sat -
went to funan it mall with alvin-justin's friend- for our sales... not bad for the day cos we sold 2sets... initially all commission goes to alvin cos he's the one who served the customers while i do the demo... but at the end of the day boss called and told us that he added another boxing set into our sales so we hav extra commission to split up to around the commission of 2 full sets... hopeful for the next day cos i'll be the only 1 there...
sun -
bad bad bad... sales was horrible... i think the day before we're just luck to bump into the 2 who have the initial attention to buy... mm went for my lunch and walked around for my headphones... there is a shope that offered me the zen in-ear headphones at 140... mm dunno how much cheaper or more expensive... but kiv it... well thank god for me to bump into an indian family who's searching for a fitness game that can dance and so yupz managed to sold yet another 1 full set...
mon - today/yesterday
mm normal day... last day of work... no more cannot tahan le... since sat i've already had my sore throat and my body craves for a break... haha the QB aunties gave me a namecard for me to go find a job... haha and i saw quan yifeng and dasmond koh and some other i dunno whos... mm was doing my demo when i heard someone said thats jacky chan... insticntively i turned back and i saw them... 1st reaction was stunned then look for camera... no camera, good... then i continue introducing my products and stuff like they're just normal people... mm pretty cool... seems like quan yifeng was look for a LCD tv... okay i'm dancing in front of a 46' HD tv... haha... then later even more interesting a female muay thai boxing coach tried the boxing game and said it doesnt have the kick of real boxing then i asked her for a namecard... mm today also one sales by a lady who's wearing a super low cut dress and it like so hard not to accidentally look at the wrong stuff... madness... whats with the dresswear at a neighbour shopping mall century square... yupz so 1full set again...
tomorrow rest day... go out enjoy... now that i'm around 500bucks richer here's my new shoppin list and as bei have said i always set the list but never buy... haha...
cologne
belt
headphone
shirt
watch - very tough
sneakers
computer*
handphone*
*long term shopping list...
done... nitez...
-rain keeps poring-
2:10 am
Monday, January 08, 2007
well things changed
things always does...
and i'm always the one who changes with the change...
recently chatted about me being a gemini...
hey i'm pretty much proud to be a gemini
even for those shortcomings...
i'm pretty adaptable due to the fact i change very fast...
every situation it doesnt take long for me to get use to...
versatility??
nay i just go with the flow...
things seems much better now...
the feeling of having not much feeling is great
acceptance of how one truely feels is the solution to the problems of the heart
denial is the thorn that one places upon one's heart
due to the fact that one could not accept facts
and thus once the thorn is removed,
freedom of choice and feeling is restored...
today the strong wind that blew away my last candle made me freezing cold...
but at the same time it let me realise that in a corner of my room
away from the wind, there is a new candle that is actually lit
the flame was too small to be notice
too uncertain to be considered as a flame...
but only when i'm that cold that i realised its existance...
i wondered its existence...
of the flame, for it is certain that the candle has always been there...
well all i can say is that there arent any more circumstances
for me to see if the flame ever grew brighter, stronger...
no circumstances to be certain...
i'll try not to be hopeful...
all i know is that its just tiny flame...
i'll wait and see...
although most probably...
it'll die out soon...
-rain keeps poring-
12:46 am
Sunday, December 31, 2006
the year's ending and the new 1 is beginning
how have you been this year
its been a rough year for me and there are tons of obstacles that i've passed
well... i've learnt alot, changed alot
started the year busy with ogl and byg
well it seems to be a journey of confidence
gained alot of confidence during my ogl week
lost alot during byg
mm figure out that the more serious the consequences are of my actions
the less confidence i have
studied hard for my block test and thats when i got closer with the ny clique...
then the worst of the worst happened
in a flashed i lost my brother
i lost my sincere laughter
i lost more freedom
i lost more tears
i lost the very soul i wanna nuture up
i lost the friend whom i never grew close to
i lost the companion at home
i lost... half of me...
everything was rough...
things helped back home with the world cup
as men... me and my dad grew close
then it was the mids and the prelims...
tried hard to study tried hard to stay focus...
seems so hard
A's come and go... screwed up from the 1st day till the last...
finally everything ended with me being fatigue...
fatigue of everything...
well... woke up... slept... and hope things go smooth...
and know what??
i'm still searching for my laughter
i'm still hoping to smile from my heart
to find the cheerful jieyan back...
hopefully...
next year??
hope so...
really hope...
my New Year Resolutions:
i wanna be more confident
more outspoken... more friendly
i hope to be happy
wanna be less bothered so easily by people around me
i wanna mature up
in the way i dress and my thinking
maybe i'll read more
i'll find more shirts?? haha
i wanna think more about my future...
or should i say more sure of what i want and who i wanna be in the future...
find a decent job to last me for the 3months
then work up physically for my army...
finish the 1st year of army in a fine state...
i dont wanna think too much
i dont wanna be emo so easily
i dont want anything bad to happened to my family...
i dont wanna be so controlled by others
well then happy new year everyone...
-rain keeps poring-
11:29 pm
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
haha yes another long post to wrap everything up
thurs- 21dec
went out with karen... haha finally after so long for the both of us to meet... haha and some more that day was the last day of my black hair... woke up in the morning and realise i dont hav my wax... then since i'm meeting her at 3.30, i went down to compassvale to walk walk and got my wax... haha had a very very good style that day... mm went around walking in the already-so-boring orchard road... no christmas mood... haha... took neoprints... mm very nice ones... shall upload it on my next post... had ajisen too... nice chatting and the day ends with me so luckily saw this book for my mortal that has alot of cartoons for most situations like congrats,family,love, friends etc... then for every picture comes with a quote or a line that hold its meaning... haha very sweet de... was thinking that connie mj pf all see liao will oso wan... haha too bad only for my mortal... hope she likes it...
fri- 22dec
argh dye hair day... excited?? no... super nervous... haiz i'm always so nervous whenever i cut hair by a new hairstylist, new hair cut or now esp my 1st dye... the feeling sux... cos i'm really afraid of screwing up my hair... already low self confidence... cannot have a bad hair colour... mm went down to singpost around 10.30-11... mm spent alot of time thinking what to dye la... mm in the end the hairstylist help me chose the colour and give me a little free highlight on the fringe.... mmm then end product?? haha very satisfying... although still afraid people will say i beng la... but personally its very dark... even for the highlight... haha peifen and xinying were the 1st to see it and they say not bad... haha then followed by xinyu... mm walked around xinyu in the afternoon... haha her mood was bad la after the short amounts of sleep... mm in the end help her find what to buy for her mortal... haha and got the autographed zhen yuan chang's pic... bad lamination by the sales lady la... wasted...
sat- 23dec
meet out with felicia and weiting for lunch... i ate at home le then had to see them eat AJISEN... argh so hard to endure not eating a bowl la... weiting say she dun like my highlight... sad... haha then meet up with kokjing while we went down to be mr delivery man for stuff to peifen... mm so finally felicia and weiting meets peifen and peifen finally meets felicia and weiting... mm me and feli left for our class steamboat at marina... karen they all see my hair le say beng... heartbreak!! eat le then go orchard then go home... mm nth much...
sun- 24th dec christmas eve
mm meet xinyu to finish buying her mortal's stuff... mm met her at orchard mrt and ate at lunch... we went down to sommerset there to get her hat... then walked back to taka to sit down and chat but met this lady to promote her savings stuff... then went wisma for starbucks... haha it started raining so we asked peifen to come over and find us had coffee standing up cos there wasnt any space for us... mm went down to the 1st floor and we took photos!! haha peifen was so in the christmas mood that she brought her camera... mm walked around until the rain stops then me and xinyu went far east so as to not make xinyu's day an unfruitful 1 beisdes buying her mortal's prex... mm went there and she bought hairclips then we went to take neoprints!!
woot!! my 1st neoprint with the new hairstyle... haha very nice neoprint oso... haha then xinyu rushed to bugis to find her friend while i went back to find peifen... haha she sugested to stay for countdown... so ok lor stay lor den meet xinyu den pf dont feel like staying le but in the end we stayed and went down orchard road for the countdown... mm not very good stuff happened but in the end we had our small share of fun during the countdown and also while avoiding the battles and skidding our way out... mm then went home... suprise suprise no christmas mood...
mon- 26th dec christmas
mm since i slept 5.30-6am in the morning i woke up at 12.30pm realising that im gonna be late... rushed to bath and didnt really styled my hair but on my way out i was like thinking mm mayb i should try wearing my jacket for my white shirt... haha mm endure the heat lor... since not really gonna walk orchard most prob... haha so wear until very smart today la... still thinking about me perspiring too much but haha juz try to kep myself cool... mm met the rest and the 1st thing bei tian mj say was -beng- wah i was like a bit upset la... haha cos thats what i dont want my hair to be, although i know regardless what colour i dye , i'll still look beng... either alot or a little... haha went to reserve billy bombers then had our lunch at the food court, meet up with the rest then went to catch -a night at the museum-... funny show... not much content but worth the laugh... mm anyway we went to have our dinner then the gift exchange!!! haha so exciting... mm here's the link -connie-bei-yiwen-tian-beng-xinyu-mj-connie- and -peifen-me-xiying-justin-peifen... mm guessed my angel like yesterday le la... haha recieved a bodyshop cologne, toblerone, pictures, an envolope of dried petals small notes and letter... haha yupz all these stuff are her ideas for gifts for other people just that she use it on ME for dry run... lol... mm dinner le most left le then left me bei pf and connie... sat down at mac for a short chat before leaving too... haha took some pics on our way back...
tomorrow's boxing day although there isnt any gift for me to open this year, i still love this day more than christmas eve and christmas... haha mm maybe mahjong tomorrow... haha dunno... if not then i'll juz be slacking around at home then...
haiz time shoots like rockets... so fast everything has passed... and the new year's comin, the chi new year then getting our results then ns...
haiz its all gonna come so soon..
mm been speaking about confidence quite these few days...
haiz my new year resolution for dunno how many years le...
i wanna be more confident...
i know it does take some time... but i've been like trying for so long
and i dont seem to be improving...
i'm still of such low confidence... so much so that it scares me...
it stops me from doing what i can
and it makes me feel so weak and so hurt
that i'm so sick of it...
i wanna be confident
i wanna feel good...
but now i figured that i'm still so far away from what i want to achieve
even from changin so much from my sec sch...
i'm still so afriad of doing the wrong stuff and disappointing people...
haiz hope next year will be better...
haha next year's comin in less then a week's time...
well lets hope everything is so much better next year
so much better...
-rain keeps poring-
1:45 am
Thursday, December 21, 2006
haha long since i blogged
mm back from genting and super high!!!
haha i cheong like how many days le...
mm o.O let me see
last last weekend
haha work ot for sat den left early for sun then its genting!!
mm met them at nite at golden mile
kinda regret chosing grassland for the rest
cos my family and i are pretty much used to the bus so haha pretty comfy for us
but for the rest the seats are not really that good
anyway didnt slept much and when we're there we were all tired out for fun
1st day ruined
haha 2nd day we had our indoor stuff
3rd was outdoor but tragically it was raining but i tried most coasters except my fav space shot
haha the rest almost all didnt dare to try la
4th day was the tragic day cos 3rd day nite think we ate the wrong stuff for dinner
haha that nite i'm already dizzy but i'm still pooling and bowling... but bowling was good cos i keep getting very good shots although my stomach is in pain... finish the game and i was trying to get back to the hotel asap but cannot tahan rushed to the toilet outside bowl... came out half dead but i didnt last long before i started to vomit into the trach bins... wow... all kang kong... lolx... i was still very high that nite... haha was still smiling even after like 5 times of diarrheoa... tried to sleep although my head is spinning when i close my eyes... woke up 3am vomitting... i seem to have started a chain reaction cos 3others woke up either feeling very uncomfortable or vomitted... haha so in the end the 5of us who were down went to see the doc at genting... took a jab and loads of pills... vomitted my pills the 1st time...
mm went back to s'pore with a bad stomach and haha a very fun experience even with the food poisoning...
cos mm u truely see ur friends caring for u, tuggin u into bed, checking ur temperature, taking care of u when u're really weak... its very touching and warm to the heart... haha u know ur frenz care about u all the time but when the actions truely takes place... it is really very touching... haha... thanx peeps... luv ya guys...
mm came back le slept 1 whole day after that next 2days work with a bunch of asshole and idiots... bryan and co. was a very good bunch of uncles to work with... haha they're understanding and they know when to work and when to slack... and their attitude are welll acceptable... haha but the new bunch of people are super slackers with bad attitude and not really friendly... treat us like we're their slaves... mm nvm thank god only 1 weekend... but ya wasted only made ard 70+ for that weekend... if bryan were there i wouldnve earned 150... haiz...
after that went out in the morning on monday toget stuff for amanda's party
my 1st costume party neh!!
haha muz dress up as goth... mm dark nails dark lining
haha went far east to shop for wings and my choker haha got our stuff but not really cheap though...
mm got a lingerie for her at far east and went down to the house of condoms to get other stuffs
haha went past i.p. zone and justin saw this jacket that seems to be suitable for me... mm wasnt expensive ard 35... mm but it did look good on me... haha =) then it was suitable for the party since its a black jacket and i just need to put it on with the spike choker and done... haha went to the cashier and when i paid the cashier i found out that it was 40% off... so only ard 27.30 haha super cheap and it was the last jacket of the size... haha lucky me... now i can clear a shirt/sweater since it can be use as a sweater/jacket... anyway we went down to the house of condoms to get six condoms for the 1st six days of the week and a plaster for george (amanda's bf) for sunday to rest... haha... the party in the nite was fun although i hard a bad hairstyle haha and was barred from drinking... cool photos taken too...
mm went back peifen's house to take our stuff but ended up tonning... mm left me with pf connie bei en and ming jue... yupz all girls except me... chatted and all of us snuggle up in her room... wasnt sleeping almost the whole nite cos of the alarm clock's ticking... cant stand...
next day morning(tues) back home to change and meet feli... mm watched eragon... typical storyline... mm average movie... haha ate pizza again... haha everytime we meet up we eat pizza... lolx...
wed went praying in the afternoon and asked bei justin and peifen over to my house for dinner and mahjong... haha nice game... cos the game involved money!!! welll very little 5cents 10cents only... haha but still it was fun... lost 2.50 though... haha... and now its 5am and i'm still bloggin... haha tml meeting karen... mm haha neoprints!!! although i seriously tink my hair is super ugly...
haha this week super busy... mm fri i'm gonna have my hair cutted and dyed... cool... but dunno if its gonna look good... sat steamboat... well details are still in the process... sun yv christmas but not sure if its still on... mon haha ny clique christmas outing... watching nite at the museum and angel mortal gift exchange...
haha so packed...
mm been pretty high for so long... mm o.O???
通常越高的雪山，雪崩时破坏能力越大
打一支针时，会觉得是好玩
第二是刺激。
但针打多了，
或打对地方时，
是会痛的。
而且痛得很深。
但谁会知道呢？
只有那心甘情愿被打得人，
他自己最清楚。
-rain keeps poring-
5:11 am